Ergane in Retrograde: prom 1993

Friday, July 07, 2006

prom 1993
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At 9:03 AM PDT, Ergane said...: Happily uncomfortable... so was she... look at her. We didn't like each other... at all. We were really close growing up, but... well, she started menstrating and there was no one to tell her about it... so I did, I knew about it. She listened, but I think it marked a deeeeeeeep division between us.

So, I went to prom with Wenona instead of, say, Kenesha, because after Teresa and having sex with Reedy and dating Heather and chasing Gabe and all the other undercurrents going... I wanted something that was at least HONEST... more honest than heterosexuality!

I am not saying I am not, in a sense "using" Wenona, but I am saying I broke with convention and even did something "improper." As a B/black Southerner raised in the house of "Proper" -- believe me: It was something *different* and I was aware of doing it. It was my compromise and rebellion all in one felled sweep.
At 6:11 PM PDT, Ergane said...: That started at 12 for me. I nearly succeeded when I was 19/20.

I know, the times were different, but I am interested in all the stories so the Conversation can be as informed as possible.

I am sorry you were there. Years ago, I realized, watching gay older men in a bar that everything that happens -- it isn't for me, but those who came before me who are still here. I feel that kind of responsibility. I look forward to seeing what is done for me.

Yeah, I can be an optimistic fuck.